Nameless..

As it poured over and over
I wondered what drenched my face
I wondered why I didnt dance today
I wondered why I felt lashed
I wondered why I couldnt beam
I wondered why I couldnt smile anymore

I turned around
And as my eyes searched
I looked in every corner
I looked in every nook
You were not there
You were not here
You took the umbrella away
You left the mask today
You took the joy away
You took the will to live again

You left me empty handed
But you arent to be blamed
You anyways were never 
Mine to claim

I was the toy when you had none
When you had no options, you made me one
I chose you let to in
I chose to trust you
At the end, its just your game
But no one except me to blame

I had never before
But you made me want to howl
You made me want to scream
I had no one anymore
No one to turn to 
No one to talk to
Coz they had all warned me before
They told me well in advance

They told me not to tag along
They told me not to play along
I know they wouldn't hold me down
But I knew I wouldn't be able to breathe no more
I knew I could do this no more
But you left me no choice
You made me invisible
And i became one
Not because you overshadowed me
But because I let you


You broke me to pieces 
Not because you could
But because I let you
You had me in your spell
You had me wound around your little finger
I was your puppet
You moulded me the way you wanted
And the day I spoke 
Is when you kicked my butt
You got me to run away
From the place I called home
I now know,
Thanks to you
I am left with none

The Sky & The Rock

There are times when you stare

Up at the sky

Times when all you want to do

Is fly really high

And then you feel the weight 

That keeps pulling you down

Like the rock

Meant only to drown you

That rock that aims for the sea bed

That rock that knows

What looks alive is simply dead

The rock that knows

That maybe you're done

Done trying

Done struggling

The rock that knows 

That maybe the thought

Of letting go

Seems peaceful

The thought of not fighting 

Not struggling 

Just letting the currents carry you

Take you with them

Drown you

Soak you in 

Seems so soothing so calm

And in that moment

You see yourself floating

On a cloud of absinthe 

That leaves you 

Thoughtless and speechless 

The one that lets you float 

Up and high

In the sky

The one that you once 

Aimed to fly!

Lessons Learnt

As I sat by the window

Watching the raindrops 

Trickle down the pane

I wondered

O dear, I've been insane

I spent my days

Pondering over thoughts

That couldn't matter less

Things that made me

A complete and utter mess 

I dreamt of the hand

That pulled my heart out

Without blinking the eye

Leaving me with no tears to cry

I stared as you walked away 

Stood there dumbfounded 

You dug my grave

While I looked astounded

You shovelled dirt on my grave

While my breath was intact

My heart beating as if

It wasn't greased and glued

Still there was something

My life, which chewed

As I lost your sight

I closed my eyes

Searched for you 

With all my might

You were long gone

But your memories 

Are what I hold onto tight

And the lesson I learnt

To let go where for feelings

You have to fight..!!